glasswings-san

Disappearing is easy, ignore this phone call, don't respond to this message, look the other way, ignore the outside world, walk the other way, be cold, be crass.
But every once in a while we get that one friend that refuses to let go, that refuses to be ignored and that against all odds continuously knocks at your door. I have such a friend and I know for a fact that I am far from deserving. I continuously drop from the face of the earth, I sometimes don't answer her phone call, I ignore her messages and sometimes I speak ill of her. If I am being honest, sometimes I am ashamed of her and that in turn creates a poison so thick inside of me that I feel sick.
But she always just smiles and smacks me in the head, pulls me from my cave and pushes me into the outside world. She shrugs off my excuses and reintroduces me to the outside world filled with sunshine and laughter. She kicks down the door with a mighty kick, laughs at my ridiculous expression and sticks around like glue.
Until I recede back into emptiness she continues to smile, listens to my problems and tells me hers in return. And suddenly I'm alive, lit with a fondness I hadn't realized was there and it's like everything is old but new; a familiar sensation. We run through the streets, the stores and we blare our music too loud and make stupid faces at other children. She offers to pay and sometimes I'll refuse, other times I attempt to pay and in the end we'll have a pissing match over who gets to pay until we laugh till it hurts.
She isn't pretty and neither am I, we aren't best friends but we could be. She cares about me in ways other friends never did. And I am proud and damn happy that she refused to be driven off.
Perhaps I will call her today, it's been a while and I intend to remedy that.

Well now it's been a long time since i've posted anything....wait i think i've written that already ^^'
anyway things have been going alright, not like i had always wished but it's getting better
i posted new things, i havent been drawing a lot but i've been getting better it think :3

Oh wow i havent added ANYTHING on this journal thing for a LONG time haha, sorry about that, well not much to say, it's been an interesting year, i'm excited and nervous all in one.
I have court in two more days and i'm nervous as hell, i hope it all turns out.
so yea, see you when i see you i guess.

Ho, ho, hold it right there
I don't mean to stop and stare,
But girl, you've got it going on
You're as pretty as the day is long
That face could light up Rudolph's nose
Those eyes could up and melt the snow
Your love is anything but cold
Let's get this show on down the road

Merry Christmas, baby doll
You're the greatest gift of all
Just in case those lips get cold,
Meet me by the mistletoe

Ho, ho, hold me tight
I can't believe you're here tonight
Girl, I think the world of you
You're as pretty as the sky is blue
And if you feel the same for me,
Meet me by the Christmas tree
I'll pick you up in Santa's sleigh
And we'll be laughing all the way

Merry Christmas, baby doll
You're the greatest gift of all
Just in case those lips get cold,
Meet me by the mistletoe

I'll have you feeling like you're gold
I'll have you feeling like you're gold

Merry Christmas, baby doll
You're the greatest gift of all
Just in case those lips get cold,
Meet me by the mistletoe

so i dont know why but i've been thinking a lot about all of you. i've been missing you all like you dont even know. you cant even imagine how many times i've thought about all those times just hanging you with you all, lazing about, sitting on the curb of the street, running around like animals, just doing things crazy kids would do.
Nikki, Brandon, Lizzy, Adam, Carlos, Katie, Tiffany, the friends i havent seen in so long, the people i dont know what happened to, i hope you all are doing alright and found your individual paths to your own group. i hope your groups are as fun as ours once was.
i'll always remember jamming out with you all to ICP. And this is to you, my fellow Juggalos and Juggalettes.
i miss you all.

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Now we have been told this carnival shit has touched many lives.
People have fuckin` sworn to us they too can feel it inside.
What is it that draws you in, this magic that compels you?
We`ve been waiting six fuckin` joker cards to finally tell you.
This messengers and hints were there, all though most never picked up on them.
We snuck em` in subliminally with that wicked shit around them.
We mentioned more and more of this on every Joker's Card.
The bottom line always the same, you ain't have to look hard.
We wickedly kick it, inflict it, you get it, get with it and dig we don't preach it flat, cause some ninjas don`t wanna get with ya, they quick to forget ya without the hatchet and gat out.
So we rose the hatchet, do or die, now Juggalos standing tall, after all 6 have risen the end of time will consume us all. It ain't got nothing to do with us, It ain't Psychopathic Records!
All we`re doing is pointing this shit out to you, we in this together! Who`s behind the Dark Carnival, the Gatherings and the hatchet? Who`s beind Dark Lotus, the circus and everybody at it?
Who inveted Juggalos and Juggalette and fucking Faygo showers? What about that feeling you get when bumping our shit, who`s behind these Juggalo powers?
This ain`t no fucking fan club, It ain't about making a buck. Don`t buy our fucking action figures bitch, i don't give a fuck. It ain't About Violent J or Shaggy, the Butterfly or seventeen.
When we speak of Shangri-La, what you think we mean? Truth is we follow GOD, we`ve always been behind him, The Carnival is God and may all Juggalos find him!

May The Juggalos Find Him!
May The Juggalos Find Him!
May The Juggalos Find Him!
He's out there, He's Out there!

We`re not sorry if we tricked you!
We don't care what happens now.
We`re not sorry if we tricked you!
We swing our hatchet and we`re proud.
We`re not sorry if we tricked you!
Painted faces in the crowd.
We`re not sorry if we tricked you!
The Carnival will carry on.

This is our world! This is our world! This is our world!
SO GET THE FUCK OUT!
This is our world! This is our world! This is our world!
SO GET THE FUCK OUT!